yikes.
this is huge.
i just booked my flight.wow. what a scary moment.
with a click of a button i've reserved a $2000 non-refundable ticket to nairobi.
two things make me a little uneasy about this.
1. this is really real now. not that it wasn't before. but it brings this distant dream one step closer to reality.
2. its $2000!!!! i've been struggling with this for almost a year now.. this is not going to be a cheap trip. not by any means. so far, between $5000-6000. i struggle with the fact that all that money is being spent just so i can go over there. do you know how far that much money could go? do you know how much food it could provide. the children it could sponser. the micro-loans it could start. the relief it could provide. wouldn't it make more sense to just send the money over, instead of sending me over?? part of me thinks 'absolutely'. but i think sometimes that's just the easy way. sure i could write a check and i'd probably feel good and be fooled into thinking i've helped the poor. it would help, but it would also keep me at a distance, ignorant to the state our neighbors are really in.
i can't do that. god won't let me. when i think about not going to africa, it feels downright disobedient. i've just got to go.
'there is more hunger for love and appreciation in this world than there is for bread.'-mother theresa
this is huge.
i just booked my flight.wow. what a scary moment.
with a click of a button i've reserved a $2000 non-refundable ticket to nairobi.
two things make me a little uneasy about this.
1. this is really real now. not that it wasn't before. but it brings this distant dream one step closer to reality.
2. its $2000!!!! i've been struggling with this for almost a year now.. this is not going to be a cheap trip. not by any means. so far, between $5000-6000. i struggle with the fact that all that money is being spent just so i can go over there. do you know how far that much money could go? do you know how much food it could provide. the children it could sponser. the micro-loans it could start. the relief it could provide. wouldn't it make more sense to just send the money over, instead of sending me over?? part of me thinks 'absolutely'. but i think sometimes that's just the easy way. sure i could write a check and i'd probably feel good and be fooled into thinking i've helped the poor. it would help, but it would also keep me at a distance, ignorant to the state our neighbors are really in.
i can't do that. god won't let me. when i think about not going to africa, it feels downright disobedient. i've just got to go.
'there is more hunger for love and appreciation in this world than there is for bread.'-mother theresa
posted by kelli @ 10:57 p.m.
5 Comments:
At 5/7/06 8:27 p.m.,
chelsey said…
eyike and congrats! i know what you're feeling. i'm so proud of you and your heart for God. <3
At 13/7/06 3:46 p.m.,
xblairx said…
following God is scary, and most of the time it really doesn't make any sense at all. i'm proud of you for stepping up to the plate.
At 13/7/06 7:37 p.m.,
NYC TAXI SHOTS said…
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At 17/7/06 3:23 p.m.,
Anonymous said…
good thoughts Kelli - they've passed through my mind about the trips I've gone on too - I will tell you this, and I realize it's a bit of justification - if you come back you'll never see things the same, and you'll want to give way more than $5000 and likely will as soon as you can. Hope your trip goes well. Blessings,
Tim
At 23/4/07 8:05 p.m.,
Anonymous said…
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