yikes.
this is huge.
i just booked my flight.wow. what a scary moment.
with a click of a button i've reserved a $2000 non-refundable ticket to nairobi.
two things make me a little uneasy about this.
1. this is really real now. not that it wasn't before. but it brings this distant dream one step closer to reality.
2. its $2000!!!! i've been struggling with this for almost a year now.. this is not going to be a cheap trip. not by any means. so far, between $5000-6000. i struggle with the fact that all that money is being spent just so i can go over there. do you know how far that much money could go? do you know how much food it could provide. the children it could sponser. the micro-loans it could start. the relief it could provide. wouldn't it make more sense to just send the money over, instead of sending me over?? part of me thinks 'absolutely'. but i think sometimes that's just the easy way. sure i could write a check and i'd probably feel good and be fooled into thinking i've helped the poor. it would help, but it would also keep me at a distance, ignorant to the state our neighbors are really in.
i can't do that. god won't let me. when i think about not going to africa, it feels downright disobedient. i've just got to go.
'there is more hunger for love and appreciation in this world than there is for bread.'-mother theresa